Photo credit: Brooke Schultz

It's been quite some time since I made the time to share a Real MOM Monday post. It's quite silly actually. In addition to acting as another form of therapy for me, writing is truly one of my favorite things to do. Note to self: write more in 2017.

 

Perhaps one of the reasons my writing came to a halt this year was that I was pretty much pregnant and exhausted for the majority of 2016. I scraped up all my energy to take care of my family, myself, and the must-do's of BURU. There wasn't much left beyond that. Now with a newborn, there seems to be even less of me, but so much more to do.  And though I have hinted at many #Jesustakethewheel moments via social media, I haven't fully shared what is going on with us.

 

So...here comes the BIG lemon of 2016.

 

On the Monday after Thanksgiving, with a 3-week old in one hand and a laptop in the other, my phone started buzzing. It was Brett. We had spoken less than an hour earlier, and though it wasn't unusual for us to speak multiple times in a day, it was uncommon for him to call back this quickly. My "momtuition" instantly kicked in. I could feel the bad news coming from the other end before he spoke a single word, though I was clueless as to what the "bad" would be.  I certainly wasn't expecting—

 

"He FIRED me."

 (he being the boss) 

 

Brett was remarkably calm—his voice almost unrecognizable to me. As I peppered him with questions, he remained stoic and kind. As the uncontrollable tears began to run down my face, he assured me that we would be okay. No doubt, he was in shock—as was I. He hadn't been happy in this position for almost a year and the job was proving to not be the opportunity we moved across the country for, but still—this drastic decision felt out of the blue to us.

 

Brett and I are both believers of going all in. Sometimes this similarity is a win for us and sometimes it gets us in trouble. In this case, it's unfortunately the latter.  You see, we gave Salt Lake City our all. We put down roots here so that he could fully commit to this company. We invested in a home and the expansive renovations that followed. We committed to Olive's school and pledged our financial support. We relocated BURU—leaving behind a well-oiled office that had to be reestablished here in SLC. To be frank, we were doing everything we could to make this city feel like home. In retrospect, we were forcing it. It's clear now, that God never meant for this to be our home for long.

 

I want all of you reading this to know that I am so aware that the loss of a job is not the end of the world. I thank God everyday for our 2 healthy babies, our happy marriage and our supportive families—but I can't sugar coat how scary and stressful this has been.

 

While BURU has had a strong growth year (thanks to all of our wonderful #burumamas and our #burutribe!) it's not ready to support our family's current lifestyle. As I am sure many of you can relate, we fall into the "the more you make, the more you spend" sector. The unnecessary excess is actually quite gross. We hopped on a hamster wheel of accumulation and now it's time to get off. "Give me the simple life" as the song goes.

 

For the past month, I have dealt with an insane amount of emotions. Coupled with the lack of sleep due to feeding a tiny human around the clock, the busyness of the holidays, and of course my bipolar disorder—to say that the end of 2016 was a struggle is a big fat understatement. Initially I was overwhelmed with anger. I was furious that someone's sense of timing could be so poor. I felt that what should be a joyous time of celebrating a new life was clouded by a man's decision that my husband was too "pricey" for the SLC market. I grappled to understand WHY we even came to this place—so far from family and friends. 

 

Then, Brett signed the final separation agreement. As he laid the pen on the table, I saw his shoulders relax. I saw color come back in his cheeks. I saw a light that had slowly dimmed without me noticing it, re-ignite. At that very moment, among all the fear and angst, I felt hope, happiness and gratitude. The truth is, we didn't have the guts to walk away from the paycheck—even though said paycheck was slowly sucking the joy out of each day. In the stroke of a cheap, Wal-mart brand pen, I got my husband back.

 

I realize that the next phase of life is going to be challenging and trying, but I also know that the two of us—working as a team can make it through anything. With that said, we've decided to take the BIG entreprenurial leap and go BOLD for BURU.

 

We started this business together, and I have missed his presence, his guidance, and his brainpower every day since we moved to SLC. It's time for him to come back!

 

It's also time for us to MOVE on. Once our house sells (it went on the market the week before Christmas..fun times let me tell you) we are outta here!

 

City of Angels here we come!

 

With the growth of the BURU White Label, Los Angeles is no doubt the best place for BURU and seeing as our kids have been blessed with a back yard since birth, we feel it's time they experienced a little gritty city!

 

So many wrinkles to iron out, but as the "happy man" in Pretty Woman so eloquently put it, "Welcome to Hollywood!  What's yo' dream?"

 

This is ours and we're going for it!

 

I look forward to sharing this journey with you—the good, the bad, and the BURU. In the next few months, our family will see many changes. For those of you going through anything similar, I am excited to write about our "make it work" moments.

 

To 2016 - you gave us a new human and dropped a bomb on us that resulted in a new outlook on life.

 

To 2017 - we're coming for you! {insert fist pump}

 

 

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15 comments

  • Sandi Hall

    So sorry to hear about this hurdle in your lives, but, all will work out. I feel it. You know you’re quite a writer. Maybe you should use that gift. Everything happens for a reason.

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  • Renee Seger

    It looks to me that you were destined for bigger and better things! Hope this crossroad leads you to your dreams. You are AMAZINGLY talented and I wish you the best!!!

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  • Valerie Dittner

    I’m blown away by your perspective, faith and courage! Go and get it girl! It’s all yours to take. Xoxo

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  • Pamela

    Thank you Morgan for your honesty! Bless your hearts. We know your story too well. Our year started out with my husband’s shocking job loss as well. Purely monetary decision for them with no regard for the 23 years he had gone above and beyond for them. He only had 3 more years until he could retire with Social Security and Medicare. But we were too young for either and at 61 he wasn’t marketable. There has been a lot of anger, fear, hurt, but also answered prayer, and resourcefulness.
    I know you’ve felt total panic and peace in the same day! Just remember God will take care of you. Just ask Him and keep working toward your goals. It hasn’t always been easy but we just had to remember God wouldn’t abandon us. We never dreamed my husband could semi-retire and we would be ok! We’ve made it almost a year! Our needs and a lot of our wants within reason have been met. And like you, we are happier!
    Best of luck, honey. Your mother will keep us girls up on your progress as well. But do let us know what’s happening with you. Hopefully there will be a nonstop flight from Nashville to LA for Momo! ??. Pamela C

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  • Ashley S

    I’m so excited for y’all! One of our family (and church axioms) is to Fail Forward. It’s not the end of the world if you fail or things don’t work out, just learn from it and see the beauty in the situation despite the results. Y’all seem to be nailing that! Praying you experience the Lords favor as you re-prioritize and reconnect as business partners with your hubs in a new city! I’m amazed by you vision and proud to call you friend! Fist bump. ❤️ Dalgo

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  • Ashley S

    I’m so excited for y’all! One of our family (and church axioms) is to Fail Forward. It’s not the end of the world if you fail or things don’t work out, just learn from it and see the beauty in the situation despite the results. Y’all seem to be nailing that! Praying you experience the Lords favor as you re-prioritize and reconnect as business partners with your hubs in a new city! I’m amazed by you vision and proud to call you friend! Fist bump. ❤️ Dalgo

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  • Ashley Fultz

    Morgan, first of all, I am so excited you are moving to LA and can’t wait to see you. I also applaud you for your bravery and sharing these trying moments. Moms gotta stick together and we are all here for you! You guys will get through this with flying colors and I am a firm believer everything happens for a reason. Good luck on the house sale and email me so we can get together! Xo

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  • Brooke

    That is a big ol’ lemon and I’m sorry to hear you and your family have had to go through such turmoil when you already have so much on your plate. But it seems clear that your love and faith for and in God and your family is what is turning that sour fruit right into lemonade! I also want to share that the exact same thing happened to me. My hubby lost his job the day I found out I was pregnant! It was the worst but it also brought about the change we needed and wanted, even if we couldn’t have admitted it to ourselves. Now we’re happier than we’ve ever been! I know the same happiness is in store for you — excited for all that’s to come this year! And to see what you’ve got in store for us with the BURU White Label! ~ Cheers, Brooke

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  • Amelia

    Morgan, I never write to people that I follow on instagram but this post hit home. When I was pregnant with my second child (she is now 21 months), my husband was essentially fired (squeezed out) from his position as a partner in a law firm in December of 2014. I am also a lawyer and was working but about to go on maternity leave. It was very stressful emotional time. In hindsight, it was the best thing that happened to us but living it was very difficult. In the end my husband started his own firm that has grown and I ended up quitting my job. We are both happier and a stronger family unit. Buru is exceptional and I wish the best for you and your family.

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  • caroline

    Wow, I am so impressed by you. First of all, keep writing, you are so good at it! Second of all, your strength and y’alls commitment to each other, no matter what, is an inspiration. Love you two and so excited to see what LA brings you! And, I can’t wait to come visit! xo, Caroline

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  • Ashley Martinez

    Love this candid post. Thank you. My 2016 was similar. My husband fell ill and was out of work for the first three months of 2016. I teach yoga and am a writer which can not (yet) support a family of four with two young children. We sold our five bedroom home with a newly remodeled kitchen and moved to a three bedroom condo. We did this not only because of finaces but because physically the amount of work, the amount of stuff, the amount of pressure had drained us. There was sadness, a sense of defeat (especially on my husband’s part) but it was an opportunity to reset, reprioritize, refocus on what matters most. May this year bring many gifts to you—health, happiness and time with family. All the best in L.A.! I have a feeling you all will feel at home and your hearts will soar.

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  • Lizzie

    So proud of you both! I know that with your sense of passion for life, Buru, family and others, you will do great! Can’t wait to make time to visit you all in LA! ❤ Lizzie

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  • Jessica

    Wow!! Morgan,You’re an amazing writer! What a whirlwind!! I’m sorry for the heartache you’ve been experiencing! But seems no doubt it’s the right thing! Chasing your dream!!! I wish it were a reality show Icoukd watch on Bravo, because I know it’s going to be good! You’re the only I know in your “space”!
    You’re going to the moon baby!! I can feel it! Best of luck to you!! Everything you touch is magic! Including that home. It’ll sell in a hot second if it hasn’t already!
    I think we’re all sitting in the edge of our seats.. I can’t wait to see what’s next!

    Cheers to 2017! Having the courage to change! And going all in!

    Best,
    Jessica

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  • mom

    So well said!! I admire both your spunk and your love for each other, which makes you face a challenge with pure zest!!! I love you and your precious family more than you will ever know and I know that God has you all in the palm of his hand!!!!

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  • Gail

    Morgan your strength in God has made you who you are! Thanks for sharing. I know your momma will be there at your beckon and call! Love and happiness!

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